swimm3r

I LOVE HIGH POINT! ♥

I got my schedule, pretty sweet one. Only one 8:00 and on Tuesday I have one class - 3:30-4:45 what a great day ... but anyway, I was looking on ratemyprofessors, and some of my professors (MY EIGHT O CLOCK CLASS) is ADD BORING haha. Great. How can I complain though? Anyone else reallyyyy nervous for college?

I was talking with Christen Martinelli today, and we were going over her schedule for senior year.. and thats when it hit me. We won't be getting schedules, and we won't be going back next year! That's crazy!

So, senior weeekkkk... :)

Graduation tomorrow - wow.

I really started to get emotional during Erin's speech - it was really, really REALLY good. It was just "light" enough, and just sincere enough as well. But, as soon as I started to get emotional, all the anger and frustration emotions took over. Does it always have to be about her? Yes, we are graduating tomorrow, so I shouldn't be worried about it, but C'MON, it NEVER ENDS. At graduation tomorrow, I'm sure there's still going to be mention of her, even though she ISN'T THERE. Oh well, hopefully everything goes well tomorrow. It's bittersweet! ♥

I just received a call from my future husband, we all know who that is. He just called to tell me this really cool flip-turn drill that he had, and to ask how swim coaching was going. After we talked about everything, and I got some sweet ideas, he told me how proud he was of me for making the great decision to be head coach. And, how he might come and try to see a meet. Everyone - look for your wedding invitations in the mail ;)

Prom was soo fun! Not what I expected at all! I can't blieve in 5 days we will be officially graduated from high school ! Woahh woah weeee woah! Aha

Prom's in like 3 hours, I hope we all have fun! :)

I went to the BCC swim team sign up meeting just to see old, familiar faces and say hey to all my girls, and I don't think that I should have. It just made me even more sad that I'm not doing it, and it just made me miss it more. Some things have really changed, some things haven't. I feel bad one of my good friends on the team got in a serious car accident , totaled his new car. It's just crazy to see some people I haven't seen in a year. Of course, my 'boyfriend' is looking fine, and we talked for awhile as usual. ;)

Even though I'm going to be coming back to meets to support the team, it's going to be SO different. I wish that I was doing it, but another part of me could not let this opportunity to coach and get all this $ go. Hopefully, it was the right decision.

OH, another funny thing. My brother is going to be the assistant coach to me (like I'm head coach, he's asst.) cracks me up!

DEJA VU ! I saw John Davis (Sophomore year soph hop date) woahh, and he might be working where I'm coaching this summer - so weird !

PS - this really hot guy joined, and he loved how i said "legit" every 2 seconds, and he kept laughing every time i said it - DAMNT why was he not on the team last year?

I just read my yearbook signings, and wow, I missed a lot. Some of them really opened my eyes, it was really bittersweet leaving today. UA 08<3

Maybe I'm not as ready to graduate as I thought I was... =/

Its quite unbelievable how prejudice, materialistic, and unbeliveably shocking society is! Wow!

On another note, I have a job interview thurs + friday.. I'm sort of nervous, this could change everything this summer!

On another great note, I am 13 lbs lighter! I can sort of tell in my face, and in my arms.. But we'll see what happens.. I'm proud of myself!when u actually look and think what is served / what people eat at school, its sort of obnoxious! :/

Hopefully, everything works out for the better! 3 days - that's all we have left.. I don't have many exams to take which is absolutely great, bc I am mentally checked out for the year! Summer, here we come!

Oh, and going back to that "what to do" thing for the summer..

Option #1: Take the coaching job, and get paid lots of $, meet new kids, look great on my resume, be extremely busy for the entire summer, and be "overwhelmed" maybe? And, not be able to do BCC swimming and be a kid for this last summer.

OR

Option #2: Don't take the coaching job, do BCC swim team, stick with my original job that I have (make lots less $) be a kid for the last summer, maybe take the asst manager job at the pool (possibly still make lots of $) and still have fun with my friends! (And time to "breathe")

HELP! Which one?

No School = Amazing.

Karma's a bitch!

Did I make the wrong decision? Ugh! I hope that I made the right decision for college next year!

I was offered a job to be the HEAD COACH at Lane Swim Club.. recommended by Deej .. and it would pay so much money, and look great on a resume', and be SO FUN. But the downside's: The meeting (for the whole season) is May 31st during Baccelareate (wow, can't spell) and clearly I can't go to that, and then I wouldn't be able to do my own swim team with Deej at BCC, and hang with my friends for my last year! I have one more summer to be a child, and that would be taken away. Also, I wouldn't be able to work at my current job as much, AND I might get a job anyway at BCC. BUT, this could be the opportunity of a LIFETIME. What do I do?

I don't want to graduate, because I don't want to leave friends, but how do I keep living in this school with girls who are so full of themselves, that they put down others? I'm sorry you think you're amazing, but seriously get over yourself, because in college, you're going to get a SERIOUS reality check.

As much as I LOVE my friends, I cannot stand some people at Ursuline anymore/can't wait to leave. You know who you are. Stuck up, full of yourself, all you fucking care about is yourself.. you're interest in others is 0% it's all about YOU. YOU. YOU. it makes me FUCKING SICK. So, have a great life, and I hope you're successful in the future.

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NOT.

I love my brothers more than I could ever say!

I think I'm going to High Point next year!!! Its come down between that and St. Joe's.. St. Joe's price kills me, but other than that, its amazing! But how can I pass up high point? I spent a day of classes at HPU and I've prob never had that much fun in my life.. And in classes? The campus is ridiculous, its a great price, its a great size, perfect major, and gorgeous weather.(Its 75 degrees (has been) all weekend) Its just ridiculous how perfect it is.. I'm going to an OAR concert + party at my bro's house tonight, should be fun!

Ps - I'm not ready to graduate yet which is weird, bc I see this whole new life ahead of me.. What if I get a psycho roommate that doesn't talk? AHHHHH

It's sort of ridiculous how much closer my brother(s) and I have gotten. I love them so much! It's sort of ashame how much my sister and I are drifting apart. Age difference, maybe? Who knows... Spring break has been AMAZING so far! I have gone shopping so many times and gotten the CUTEST new things ! All of them are summer outfits, flip flops, adorable summer bags, and I canNOT wait till summmmmmer! :)
I narrowed down my college choices to St. Joe's University, High Point, and LaSalle. My Mom is sort of afraid for me to go to LaSalle since the city is not good, but we'll see :) I'm going to the SJU Admitted Students Day, and then I can definitely make my final decision. Also the HPU and LSU open house are coming up within the next 2 weeks, so I think I'll head to those again too. I have such a "comfort zone" in knowing so many people including my brother there, and from spending a weekend I know even more people. We'll have to see, though! St. Joe's is just SO expensive! :(